Feeling of the day

Wow doesn’t it just seem like an easy decision to not have a cigarette in the morning. Yet when the first thing you do each time you wake up is reach for one and go outside I feel like this today. Let’s take this thing one moment at a time, yesterday I enjoyed pushing my limits of comfort, now I keep resorting back to rationalizing just one. I love reading info about how kicking heroin is easier than quitting smoking. The unfortunate thing is you can’t use heroin to quit smoking otherwise I would gladly consider the option right now LOL.

I’m in desperate need of non smokers to hang out with, I can’t even spend 5 minutes with a smoker without thinking it’s cool just to have one. Of course I’m not fooled that one leads to smoking a pack a day for 17 years like it has for me so far. I’m sure if I keep this up I’ll have enough Camel Cash for the iron lung that I will need.