Day One No Smoking
My LifeOk so I figured that I would mark another shot at quitting smoking today, at this point it’s been since last night at about 8:30pm I made a decision to not pick up another cigarette. At this point being roughly 20 minutes to 3 o’ clock I feel like I have a lump in my throat and my mind is racing pretty damn quickly. Not much for a lesson of being in the moment or is it? I am consumed with wanting to push away my obsession for a smoke. It’s not the best way to go about it, as i write this down I’m able to be in the moment.
As I am in my body right now I will acknowledge that I want a cigarette, and try to investigate how my body is reacting to these feelings. I have a tightness in my throat, and a hard stomach.
The reason I chose to take on this attempt was because of something that I heard at my meditation 
class on monday night. I heard Noah talk about stepping up our practice and choosing to take on the uncomfortable. This is a pressing issue that has plagued my existence since since I took my year to live practice to heart.
I’m hoping that the more I put it out there that I am a non smoker the more I can accept this as who I am at this very moment in time. I will not create more suffering myself if I choose to smoke once again but for right now I will not.
This post may not make much sense but it is how my mind is running right now, maybe if I put it down right now I can at least take a look at it later on and get a good laugh.
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June 22nd, 2007 at 4:46 pm
I’m a smoker…I have tried to quit about 4 or 5 times now. That and talkin like a sailor seem to be the bad habits I have problems with. I wish you luck with the loss of your bad habit, but I don’t feel you need luck. You seem to be the personality that can master this one. It will get easier, and if you stay in the moment that you’ll know exactly when that is.
Congrates on your healthier lungs:)
June 29th, 2007 at 2:40 pm
I’m a smoker but I haven’t had a cigarette just for the moment, or day, in about 11 and a half years. It was just about the hardest thing I ever did and well worth going through the pain and fear to get to the other side. Just be gentle with yourself.
June 29th, 2007 at 9:28 pm
I’m back on day 1 but so far it’s 9:30 PM and I’m at home w/out a smoke thankfully.
July 1st, 2007 at 12:15 pm
Just say No! My father smoked three packs a day for 60 years and then just quit. Unfortunately, he died of colon cancer caused by smoking (a common related illness if you don’t die of lung cancer first). I don’t want to be burying you before your father! Besides you are going to kill your dog from second hand smoke….
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